new ajk list is ready. old ajk list is going to be wipe away. my name is no longer on the board. forever not. seeing grace is taking my post , seeing grace's name is written overlap mine, i feel grateful. this is the first time i realise that amcco is that warm that lovely that i never wanted to leave. thanks to the juniors. thanks to the seniors. that beautified my memory which can never be share never be forget never be slipping off my mind. seeing my hu is being use my junior, knowing that im no longer a section leader. seeing grace, knowing im no longer a head of instru department. is time to leave, is time to give away, to see a higher achievement from the next batch. from the day i started to join co, i've got into a train, a train that went genting went penang went cameron went taiwan that showed everyone's impressive characteristics, that unleash hidden potentials and talents. there's laughter, tears of happiness, tears of disappointments , hugs of warmth along the long journey of the train. the bond between us is getting stronger and stronger, until we can close our eyes when playing on the stage, rely and believing each others, and our conductor, who leading the whole team of us towards our goal. tears shedding on stage and however we cried like one of a kind, we never bother, tears streaming down, and dropped . until the last note of the song, everything EVERYTHING of co flashed in my mind, the images keep flashing fast untill the image that im on the stage, the last note is played. yuefei the greatest song we ever played, that touched everyone of us, everyone of the audience, the workers of the competition, and even the pro mr lim and ms lim. we cried like shit after we left the stage, hugs of warmth from every juniors. :') thats the greatest station we went throughout the journey , is time to get down the train, let it fill with new passengers , new batch of members, awaiting for the next peak of achievement.

i cry easily.

when mum is backed and she scolded me without reason

i cried. i hadnt start to talk a single word yet.

when mum scolded me again to clean up the shits

i cried. it is not my responsibility to clean up the mess everyday.

when everyone left the house

i cried. why is my holiday shit like one of a kind.

i just started my holiday, and y'all are commanding me to do this and that

so am i having my holiday seriously?

i havent finish my works yet. i havent hang out for once yet. i havent go shopping yet. i havent watch any movie yet. i havent watch any drama yet. i havent do what i wanted to do.

well i think i 'm having my worst holiday ever since 24/12/1994.

bulllshit

sad that no one is asking me out for a hang-out, my dear friends.

i think im no one in everyone's heart.

everyone is leaving, and.

im lost.

i never be that far apart from her before

she taught me a lot , helped me a lot,

opinions from her is what i need the most

supports from her is my strongest catalyst

i think i wouldn't use to be backing home to a house that lack of her laughters

lack of her lameness.

you're moving and i started to miss you already

khong hui yi.

MY BEST SISTER EVER.

tears streaming down is unstoppable. i think my face is free from bacteria. tears contain lysozyme. ha-ha.

not the worst day ever

but i am not happy at all

shit happened?

urgh, stuck with relationship stuffs that i never wanted to get into

i aint popular aint famous

so let me go and get another girl.

ya as cheryl said so im bad i suck i what ever shit it is im always that bad

and let him suffering like hell but im not going to give a damn on it.

ho shit . ya, im bad i do not care what he feels.

what they mean by HELP

how to help

help in? relationship stuff?

aha, isnt that giving hope? and the next time that i disregard,

ya im even bad that time. so im not going to HELP him now , no matter how bad he feels

even he posted status like self-harm, so sorry i will not going to help anymore.

i rather be a bad one now instead of a real bad selfish heartless

not considerate not thoughtful woman.

i do not want to be a bitch.

sorry for now, thank me in future.

ha. ha.