why are you going to music camp!
why are you keep appearing in front of me
i wanted to get rid of you so badly
even just a single day.
just before i leave co.
this camp is my only hope. PLEASE. D:
i cant do well i feel uncomfortable i play it like shit when you're with me
i have no confidence in front of you.
your technique your volume
i lose, right?
so freaking tired of getting a j like you
i lost all my strength all my tears
youre like putting tonnes of pressure on me.
i aint perfect, im a loser, everyone is leaving
im drowning
im collapsing
im dying
im done
get a life, azq.


i aint a natural. stop throwing high expectation on me.
feel like shit right now

why are those people
acting like theyre hot
acting like theyre class
yet theyre gossip others like no one else
oh bullshit
why using a fake account to scold others instead of their real account
c'on what are they hesitate of
show their faces if they dislike one
not to be mad cause of them
but why are they keep putting on their masks
why cant they take it off
once they were good friends of mine
what will you feel when once a closest friend of yours did that to you

最近的我很想哭，不知为何，
就是想哭。
泪没经过我的允许
落了下来
滑过我的脸颊
我抹了又抹
怎么都抹不完
我也不知为何
泪就是停不下来
我前个月的人生过得太好了
真的，
好景不长
忽然觉得我的生活 好烦 好乱 好讨人厌
为什么他们就是不珍惜我对他们的好
对他们的关心
我真的那么不值得被珍惜吗
我真的那么廉价吗
我真的那么不想被你们在乎
不想被你们理会
甚至你们可以把我当透明一样看待吗
原来真的没有付出多少就得到多少的事情
我做的一切全全都被忽视的
只因为我没有价值
我算什么啊
朋友算什么啊
原来只有我单方面的付出
真心的想对朋友好
好像我对他们的好是理所当然的
我对他们好，当然他们 不需要 对我好
是这意思吗

丘育桦我是真心对你好的
但这几年来你都不怎么在乎
不知为何我就是想对你好
但也不知为何你就是那么的不在乎
我们这几年的关系就是这样

stop giving me clues and want me to guess

-you did not change.

i know you really decided hard to wrote this

but i just have no idea what should i reply

so i decided to ignore your comment

people, dont left comments that i seriously dont know how to reply plss. :S

things to worry .

from someone about someone still loving someone.

complicated.

im done with these stuffs please.

these are so trouble-minded

some kind stopping my brain to turn

it just stucking there haha

my life right now is way too good and smooth.

cant believe this is my life

weird

sky is dark,

rainy day,

windy day,

cold day.

instead, my mood is so freaking good

i never thought of i can get that

really cried out loud

all my hardworks paid at last.

thanks t,w,h,m anyone else who gave me courage when my exam is on

have to say thank you so much for t and h

your mission really lead me to my best

ahhhhh :D

ohh and j, for the super-sleeping-style photo of mine ,

remind me not to sleep if i haven't finish my studies.

yeah year ends.

soon

very soon

goodbye 4s6.

since when co become that lovely,

since when i prefer practice more than busy doing unnecessary works,

since when we be that close to each other.

haaaa~ thing's getting better :)

i simply love my life NOW but not future maybe? who knows

for the past few months.

i've been through many of my first time.

studies, relationship, friendship.

for the end of this year,

from the bottom of my heart,

truly,

sincerely,

i have to say this,

mwy, thanks.

i hate that im being selfish

sorry i dont love you, but i want you to be my side

i dont wish the others owned you.

i'm yeah so bitch and selfish

'll thought of you every time when i am sad emo

'll say all the things out just to you

'll get a lil upset when you're not replying.

ridiculous

dont treat me like im your gf

dont care bout me that much

stop helping me to make the digi campus stuffs

although you had been kicked out by the security guard for tons of time

stop buying food for me and said just in case you are hungry

but you knew i've just finished my lunch.

stop buying sweets trying to put beside my bottle

but you dont know which my bottle is.

stop checking the flight ticket for me

for just once i mentioned to you.

stop saying that you'll borrow me your salary

because you knew i have to pay it all by myself.

stop texting me with long msg

though i just replied only two or three lines.

for once your msg just cant slip off my mind

when you get drunk

what you told me.

i still remember.

but i've chose a most stupid way

i ignored your msg

and then i told you we are best friend

it hurts

so so sorry tzh.

wt, you like sw now right?

i mean you love.

dont ever call me without a thing

dont ever chat with me through phone everyday

i might misunderstand.

when i saw you wrote imy stphwng,

i'll get a lil piss

sorry wt.

thanks you guys for making me feel that im not being left out

thanks for making me feel warm when i was upset

thanks for making me grown up

some may leave me, some may stay with me.

no big deal, i have to learn how to get through this.

anyway,

one sentence.

i simply love you guys.

feel like shitting these days.

tonnes of problems,

tonnes of question that i couldn't answer,

tonnes of faces that i couldn't read,

frustrated

fed up

desperate

things just went wrong

so so so wrong

the different masks that i'm facing everyday

killing me

ruin my mood

i just cant get through it

sigh

freakin out of mood right now

pissed.

hey guys. don't ever start a webcam with someone that you REALLY don't know. please don't.
i'm still can't stable yet. he's a COLOMBIAN? wanna start a web with me because he want me to see his so-called truly great things. luckily i didn't start a webcam with him that such a jerk. stop mention about you have a great penis and their men are small and scared of whites. WHATTHEFUCK? how can you say like this you bloody hell! *please. i don't want a white as my sister-in-law anymore.

everyone quit co that makes me feels that i wanna quit too. it's keep running all around my brain and i'm completely mad. can't even concentrate. high expectation from seniors make me feel stress.i'm not that good that they think that i am. i suppose to play a song very well but i just can't do it. and all the fun , all the laugh is just gone like what seniors left us.i'm not that enthusiasm in co. the thought flash in my brain. i wanna quit. i wanna quit co then no more stress and free.but then i called chooiyi.she said : you can't just think thought that on a spur of the moment. i feel so irresponsible just ditch my friend and just leave like that. if i leave, who gonna replace me in such a hurry? if i leave, my friend will be suffer and alone there? if i leave, beh, i'm sorry. keep thinking for the whole day and so fucking out of mood. but still i need to act so nothing in front of my mum. wth. how can i have such a so unmature thought. they woke me up. thanks bii , chooiyi and carmenn. i promised them i'll try to stay as long as i could. TRY. lol

i know my drawing is sucks.
don't hurt me. lol

♥ unlucky woman. lol

new year eve! the pyjamas party at lei's house. im not wearing any pyjamas. LOL.

tv room changed to dance floor. lol

last,went barroom. bumped into amelia, cping, chris. lyw? lol. and dicky liew i didnt see you. lol

cping & me. (:

amelia & me. (:

went to penang. something happened in the bus. LOL.
and BEH! my lovely grandchildren. omg. your older than me 2 years la.

pictures ;

the hotel with my seniors.

hotel room. casey wong. (:
SORRY MANAGER !